post-thanksgiving

Now, Thanksgiving is over, and this year is really approaching to the end. I still can't believe how quickly the time is passing. Thanksgiving was great. I went to Alexandra's place. Alexandra and her bf cooked huge Thanksgiving dinner, so we ate pretty much all afternoon. Food was very yummy. What I enjoyed the most was the time I spent with Alexandra. She's super cool--she's very smart, caring, and genuine, and she reminded me of someone. It's nice to have a friend like her.

After Thanksgiving, I was planning on catching up on some work, but I decided to just get some chores done and relax. Today, I went to Starbucks and read for fun. It's nice to read for pleasure. :)

Interesting thing happened last night. P texted me from Colorado. As usual, he asked me if I'm interested in, ya know, that. Since the incident a month ago, I've been in emotional chaos and haven't been in the mood. So, I vaguely told him that I'm dealing with my own issues and don't really feel like it. Then, surprisingly, he said that he wants to work it through together and that he has some issues as well. I was surprised and I'm still not taking his words at face value. Anyway, if he wants to talk, I'm open to it. I will see what happens.

To be honest, I miss H and often think about how he is doing. I'm sad that he hasn't spoken to me for over a month and I get this urge to call him up. But at the same time, I'm still emotionally injured and I'm not sure if I'm ready to speak to him, either. I wonder why he hasn't responded to my e-mails...he doesn't give a crap about me or is he mad at me??? sigh...

Need a new laptop

My laptop finally went dead last night. No matter what I do, I can't even turn the computer on. Instead of getting it repaired, I'm thinking about getting a new one. Money is tight, but I think I can purchase one with some payment plan. I had to spend one evening without a computer/internet, and it was miserable! I'm soooo addicted to computer/internet and can't even imagine a life without it.

Other than that, things have been pretty much the same. Met up with Alex and Billy for dinner/beer on Friday night. It was good to catch up with them. Can't even remember the last time I saw them.

I've been kinda depressed for the last 2-3 weeks or so. It sucks because I become so unproductive. For the last two weeks, I've been going to therapy twice a week. I think it's a good idea; that gives enough time to cover more of my issues. But my bank account is definitely not happy with this! Well, something happened about 3 weeks ago, and for some reason, it really, really made me sad. I was surprised to see how upset I got. I think this incident stirred up some of my "unresolved issues" from the past. Damn, I have lots of issues.

can't believe

I can't believe it's already November. Thanksgiving is right around the corner (in a few weeks). Once Thanksgiving passes, Christmas comes rushing...before you finish all Christmas cookies, New Year's Eve comes around, and then it will be 2008 before you know it. Crazy how fast the time passes.

Things have been kinda shitty lately. Just looking back, October was filled with emotional turmoil. It was dull in the beginning, got really exciting and happy in the middle, then boom! It got really crappy very quickly. sigh...life doesn't let me sit back and enjoy it. Good thing I go to therapy nowdays and have some friends that I can talk to. I actually requested an extra therapy session because things were going crappy.

All these things happening to my life really makes me more resistant to open up my heart. I think I'm kinda naive...I usually trust people without questioning anything, then I get hurt at the end. I'm tired of hurt feelings and disappointments... :(

By the way, Friday was crazy. I went to happy hour with Liz A and I got super drunk. I can't even remember the last time I've gotten this drunk. It's probly because I had no food all day long and had 4 mojito's in an empty stomach. I could hardly walk or stand straight and I almost puked when I was on train. It was really, really bad. I think I tend to get very drunk when I'm upset.