uneventful weekend

I had an uneventful weekend (for most part). Today, I went to a coffee shop to do some readings. I really like this coffee shop; it reminds me of Donkey in Athens, OH. I was focusing well on reading...then, I got a bt. And yes, I ended up responding to bt. sigh... I'm very conflicted about this whole bt situation. I'm not sure if I should be doing this at all. But part of me thinks, what's so bad about it? Devil and angel within myself are fighting with each other, and right now, devil is winning.

blah, blah, blah

I had a moderately busy day today. Woke up at 7am (don't know why but I've been waking up around 7am without alarm), went to the clinic to do some paperwork (treatment plans were due today), went to the gym, then did some work in the lab. I had a lot more stuff I needed to accomplish today but I guess I will get to them on Sunday.

Anyway, I met up with Liz A and Mariel A tonight for Indian food in Hell's Kitchen. It was yummy. and the best of all, I got to catch up with my favorite girl-friends. It's always nice to have some girly time!

I still don't like working on Saturdays but I'm getting more comfortable and confident in providing therapy these days. I'm looking forward to sessions tomorrow!

don't know why

Don't know why but I've been pretty tired lastely. I'm tired all day long and feel like falling asleep very early in the evening. And, even after good night sleep, I still wake up feeling tired. I'm not sick nor depressed (or, am I depressed?) Can't quite figure out why I'm so tired.

Speaking of not knowing why, I sometimes do things without knowing why. Last night, I agreed to do something that I was not quite interested in doing. I really don't know why I did it.

All in all, I guess I'm not in touch with my own feelings and wishes.

i'm back

After a long absence from this blog, I decided to come back. I was keeping a blog on this japanese website (mixi) for a while but I'm too lazy to keep a blog in Japanese--I guess it's a good indication that my Japanese is deteriorating a bit.

It's been a few weeks since the school started. Nothing much is going on. Externship finally started to pick up a bit; now I have many supervision sessions, meetings and two patients. It's crazy how much paperwork we have to do at my new externship site. It's actually worse than the clinic that I work at on weekends.

I wonder why I tend to let things just drag on for a long time even when I don't want them to. For instance...my therapist. I've been seeing this therapist for about 3 months by now but I still don't feel quite comfortable with him. Yet, I haven't told him nor changed the therapists. Another example...P still sends me explicit booty texts. Even though I'm not that interested in engaging in "activities" with him for so many reasons, I still end up responding to him. I don't think I'm interested in "activities" without emotional attachment.

Anyway, I think blog will be a good forum for me to reflect on my behaviors, thoughts, feelings, etc.