sleepless in w-side

it's about 5:30am right now, and i haven't been able to sleep. too much thoughts going on in my head and can't really shut them off. frustration, sadness, disappointment, etc. I wish things were bit less complicated. Thoughts go on and on in circle, never getting anywhere. Am I thinking and analyzing too much? This kinda reminds me of my senior year in college. I often couldn't sleep at night because of the anxiety over thesis, grad school application, classes, money, etc. I almost feel as if I'm driving myself crazy by wanting too much at the same time. As my mom used to always tell me, maybe I can't have them all at once. prioritizing--that's what I need to do. but what if I need them all now?

What's bad about not being able to sleep at night, especially on Tuesday night, is that I won't get home until 11pm (because of the stupid 8-10pm class). I wish the school was bit closer so I can come back and take a quick nap during the day...ugh.

I'm not sure if moving to NYC was such a great idea. I'm getting to like the city...but I'm talking more about academic life. I hate living so far from school (1-hour communte), hate night classes, hate having have to take the comps, hate going through the admission process again, hate big class sizes, hate taking 4 classes, hate my lab space, and hate being a student who got a special treatment and got screwed because of that. oh, man...so much negative thoughts. I almost feel like going back to good ol' Ohio.